You can call me all you like, but I would rather converse through email

STOP CALLING ME
STOP ASKING ME TO CALL YOU
CAN WE NOT CONVERSE THROUGH EMAIL?
I’M SORRY
SORRY FOR UNDERSTANDING THIS ONLY WORKS ONE WAY
I HAVE A PHONE CALL PHOBIA,
ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION
I CANNOT ANSWER YOUR CALL
AND I CANNOT FEEL ANYMORE LIKE A FAILURE FOR THAT
I KNOW I’M A LOSER
WITH MY TEETH FALLING OUT AND MY HEALTH FAILING
BECAUSE I CANNOT MAKE A PHONE CALL TO
THE DENTIST OR DOCTOR’S
I AM WELL AWARE OF MY OWN USELESSNESS
THAT I CANNOT EVEN GRIT MY TEETH AND MAKE A PHONE CALL –
THE FIRST STEP FORWARD
ALL THOSE OPPORTUNITIES MISSED –

NOTES

I shared my poem Why Would I Want to Follow the Lives of Famous People? with you and the response was good, so here is another poem from the yet to be finished or yet to be titled writing project I am working on. A memoir based on my health experiences with depression and anxiety.

Want more poetry? Try Here comes the Sun