Masquerade by Cyrus Parker.

Every poem in Masquerade by Cyrus Parker I want to put my arms around and embrace. As somebody still discovering their identity I can relate all too well to Parker’s words. I enjoyed this book more than their first book, as I felt I could relate to the poems more.

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Fixer-upper

self-confidence is built in layers,
the same way a house begins

with bare bones before becoming a home:
and just as each house has its own layout,

there isn’t only one set of blueprints,
one right way to build self-confidence.

sometimes it starts from the inside out
as one learns to love themselves, and

sometimes it starts from the outside in
as one projects the person they hope to be.

sometimes, you have to tear everything
down and start over from the ground up.


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making plans, book smarts & thoughts.

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I was thinking about enrolling on a part time college course in maths and English next year. People say you shouldn’t compare yourself with other people, but … I feel I will never catch up with my peers. I left school at fifteen. I hated the place, I was so depressed suicide was on my mind twenty-four seven, and naturally I got zilch in terms of qualifications. At that time you start thinking about what you want to do for a career, going to uni and writing your CV I wasn’t. Depression was telling me all kinds of shit and I didn’t see I had a future. So now I think uni is gone, I’ll never get to go to uni even if I wanted to and as for a career, lol. I’m not too optimistic I will be hopping from one low paid job to another until I retire at ninety-nine.

 
Of course, I know I can still achieve my goals, there’s no time limit etc but it’s hard to believe that. Mental illness has fucked up a good solid ten years of my life and I’m not going to get those years, those opportunities back. What do I do from here?

 
College seems a logical step.

 
It’s strange because I grew up with my parents and my teachers telling me how smart I was and how well I was doing with my schoolwork. This was down to two things, one I couldn’t get enough of reading books, and two I loved doing my homework. It means I’m a knowledge sponge and can retain a good amount of knowledge. I don’t think this makes me smart though. I feel like I’ve been betrayed by all those adults, telling me a load of crap. Especially as when in secondary school my grades fell off a cliff and suddenly those same people were piling in on me, asking why I wasn’t being ‘good’ and basically doing as I was told. Like any teenager, I was trying to be my own person. I ended up concealing a lot of who I was, wanted to be and that’s why I don’t really know who I am, or who I’m supposed to be performing for anymore. Depression stigma means you get quickly labelled as trouble.

 
I know this is petty and I was lucky I had a good upbringing in that I didn’t want for anything, but I would trade my books for a life where I’m emotionally in a good place, and living my best life (T) or … would I?
I don’t know. Anyway I want to go to college. I said this last year and I wimped out. I’m terrible at committing to anything because I overthink everything and when I’m getting too close to things I distance myself. But my maths is terrible and I need to do something because

NOTHING CHANGES IF NOTHING CHANGES.

 

 


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What Comes After by Melissa Toppen is now out & available to buy

What Comes After
Melissa Toppen
Publication date: August 9th 2019
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Romance

Life is full of many things.

Love.

Loss.

Heartbreak.

Laughter.

No matter how small, each moment has value.

Then there are the big moments.

The moments that define us.

And the people who shape our very existence.

Abel Collins is that person for me.

From the very first time our eyes locked, I knew there was something about him. That he was the person that would change everything.

And he did.

But Abel isn’t just any man…

His past is his prison.

His guilt keeps him chained.

His grief defines him.

And now it’s up to me to set him free.

To make him see that life isn’t just about what we’ve lost but what we still stand to gain.

Because it’s not about what came before, but what comes after.

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Author Bio:

Melissa Toppen is a Bestselling Author specializing in New Adult and Contemporary Romance. She is a lover of books and enjoys nothing more than losing herself in a good novel. She has a soft spot for Romance and focuses her writing in that direction; writing what she loves to read.

Melissa resides in Cincinnati Ohio with her husband and two children, where she writes full time.

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Cover Reveal Day. Lost Girl by Holly Kammier. ‘a compulsive thrill-ride that reads as if it’s been pulled straight from the headlines’

Lost Girl
Holly Kammier
(A Shelby Day Novel)
Published by: Acorn Publishing
Publication date: January 5th 2020
Genres: Romance, Suspense, Young Adult

Lost Girl is a compulsive thrill-ride that reads as if it’s been pulled straight from the headlines. Kammier’s journalism background brings undeniable authenticity to a novel that has it all – a love story, a murder mystery, and a real-life introduction into the distinctive world of television news.”

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NEW YORK TIMES BEST-SELLING AUTHOR

An appalling act of violence and an unsolved double murder.

Small-town investigative reporter, Shelby Day, is determined to hunt a killer.

As her search draws closer to uncovering the twisted truth, she begins receiving ominous warnings to stay quiet and drop the story. The young journalist is in danger. Her cameraman and best friend, a person with his own secret past, says he wants to protect her. But Shelby is headstrong and dodging anything that could lead to love. She can’t allow anyone to distract her as she fights for the two women who deserve justice.

She never expects along the way she’ll have to stop and save herself.

Tick tock… If Shelby doesn’t solve the crime soon, she’ll become the killer’s next victim.

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Author Bio:

Co-owner of Acorn Publishing, the UCLA honors graduate is an accomplished content editor/writing coach (her authors have gone on to become USA Today best-sellers and a New York Times best-seller). With a background in journalism, Holly Kammier has worked everywhere from CNN in Washington, D.C. and KCOP-TV in Los Angeles, to the NBC affiliate in small-town Medford, Oregon.

She is the best-selling author of the novel, Kingston Court (Acorn Publishing 2015), and Could Have Been Hollywood, a memoir. Holly recently published her third book, Choosing Hope, a harrowing story of passion and deceit, and the things we do for love. Her next novel, the YA Romantic Suspense, Lost Girl, is scheduled for release in early 2020.

Holly resides in her hometown of San Diego, California, close to family and friends. An avid reader with a passion for timeless books and beautiful writing, she also enjoys long walks, romantic movies, and pink peonies.

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Sunday is my favourite day of the week. Poem. Breather.

Poetic Insights

Breather

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a photo
of your breakfast plate –
post having eaten

all that is left are
traces, crumbs, a crust, a sliver of yolk,
arranged so
that the light through the curtains makes it spark up like a fire
as it rests on the coffee table –

a lazy Sunday –

egg sandwich, nap, channel hopping and a roast dinner towards evening


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