what’s going on underneath it all

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i lost all confidence in myself –
i could not do a thing
without worry, over fear and anxiety
that i had gotten it so wrong
it was irretrievable –

so many false starts, times where
i had to give up, be satisfied with –
at least i tried –

breaking habits, moving on from comfortable spaces
is so fucking hard,
fight with head and heart,

knowing you wanna,
but you cant,